I have had a few experiences where God showed me a deep revelation of His love for me. One such time was when I heard a testimony of a woman's suicide. The person speaking shared how this woman was at one point on fire for the Lord and brought many people to salvation. She wound up with mental illness in the hospital on suicide watch. The day she died, she slammed her head into the mirror in her room, grabbed a shard of glass and plunged it into her neck. Emergency nurses flew in to save her. They cut her chest open to get to her heart. One nurse was holding her heart and pumping it to keep her alive. As she held her heart, she was pleading the blood of the lamb over it. Turns out the nurse who God had particularly planted there wound up becoming friends with the person sharing the testimony.
I was overcome by this story as it completely shifted my mindset about suicide. I realized it was a demonic spirit afflicting the woman. More importantly, I saw how the Father took every step necessary to ensure this tortured soul was taken care of despite her failures. That God would have a nurse there that knew what to do to help more than any medical treatment was astounding to me. It resonated deep in my soul. The testimony invited me "to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ." (Ephesians 3:18b) After I came home that night I meditated on what was shared and litteraly felt a space open up in my heart that encapsulated Ephesians 3:18. I felt the breath of God penetrating my unbelief, spreading my awareness of Him and the depth to which He goes to show us His love.